We live somewhere between belief and unbelief. Our faith wavers. At times faith is strong and stable. At times it is weak, and shaken.
For many of us, our capacity for trust has been diminished by experiences with people who were not trustworthy. We have learned by painful experience that we will be disappointed if we trust. One of the most intense struggles in recovery is to rebuild our capacity for trust and hope. We want to believe, but we are afraid.
Some people believe that God will respond only to people who 'believe enough'. "If you have enough faith, God will hear you," they say. But Jesus said "All you need is faith the size of a mustard seed." The mustard is the smallest of seeds. God does not reject small, limited faith. God will not ignore even the desire to believe. God will not dismiss a willingness to learn to trust. Mountains have been moved by less. God accepts our limited faith.
God does not ask us to wait until we are certain and strong in faith. God accepts us as we are, even with our limited faith.
Lord, you see my struggle to believe,
and to hope.
You know my fears,
Help me to accept the limits of my faith.
Help me to bring my limited faith to you.
Copyright Dale and Juanita Ryan
National Association for Christian Recovery